One day he took a seat next to me at another bar, where we joined in the happy-hour conversation about politics and sex. I grow faint just thinking of that kind of exertion.
I agreed to help destroy the family of two small children and an innocent woman because it was easier than giving out a fake phone number. So much so, that he ditched their mother on Mother’s Day to profess love to a stranger on a bar stool.
But I was wrestling with shame as I realized how many of my spectacularly bad decisions had been influenced by mental illness.
I had to learn how to trust others and myself, and at times it felt like I would never get there. “I am married to a wonderful, successful, beautiful woman,” he said. But I’m not, so I have decided that I am not going to calculate anymore.” As we spent more time together, everything about our relationship felt natural.
Yes, another smug, faux-self-deprecating OW tale of love and superiority with the Super Understanding Chump Who Is Her New BFF.
On a sticky Sunday in August, when Josh and Beka’s children were staying with his mother, he asked her for a divorce. Then she grew so angry that she shook.“I could handle her anger,” he said. It’s unthinkable for me to dismantle all we’ve built. After hours of shouting, however, she began to feel better than she had since Josh first mentioned divorce. ” I didn’t see how a dinner could be pulled off without the whole thing erupting in open conflict or stalling into awkward silence. “I had to meet you,” Beka said as she opened the door.There was no imbalance in our love for one another, and we shared the same values and sense of humor.It turns out that Josh’s refusal to calculate — and my distrust in my ability to calculate — led us to the best decision of our lives: to do what it would take to be together. We can be besties later, and you can tell everyone how losing your marriage was For The Best, because you failed to sufficiently appreciate Josh. (But not that horrible.) About a month later, he told Beka about me.After we all had hugged good night, I thought, “This won’t last.” I braced myself for the wrath to come, but it never materialized.Instead, Beka introduced me to their adorable children, and my immediate bond with them made me silently rejoice that I didn’t have children of my own.